Hi, haven't posted on this forum yet but don't know where else to go to get answers to questions.

Background, I'm 36, hub 47, not that that matters but we have been trying to conceive for several years now. My periods are as regular as clockwork.

26 days, 26 days etc. At the moment I am at day 33 and no sign of a period. I did a test Sunday evening which was negative and sobbed myself to sleep.

Am scared to do another now. I want this so badly but just keep telling myself to hold on a little longer and wait and see, I'm kind of almost expecting to come on anyway.

I also have high BP which I'm on meds for and which the doc is already monitoring as it's been high even with the meds.

I'm also off work with depression at the mo and on 40mg of citalopram daily.

I don't know what to do next, have a docs app. booked for Friday so he can check out my state of mind and BP. Don't know whether to bite the bullet and do another test before then and face the disappointment again or to leave it a while longer and hope.

I'm just really confused, as I say, I am never late on. Any advice would be gratefully received.xx

 Thanks CK.xx

 Thank you Ange, my head knows you're right and it's the sensible thing to do, just scared of being disappointed. If there's still no sign of coming on then I'll do another tomorrow, it was the clearblue one I used before and I'd deliberately not done it until I was several days late, kidding myself that I wasn't getting my hopes up that way. That worked out well!xx 

Typical, at lease you don't have all the "is it or isn't it a line" panic with the CB ones. I used First response ones myself but I was 5 days late and used first mornings [got BFP] I did one the next day to make sure but I had gone to the loo twice in the night and the line was much fainter.

I know you're scared of BFN but imagine if it's positive then just imagine how happy you will be x

Sorry to hear that x